Christmas

Hey
Christmas has come and gone already!
I had a pretty good break. For Christmas I got a ton of cool stuff! I am posting this on my best gift of them all. My own tablet!!!!!!!! I am so happy I'm so thankful for my awesome stuff and I am so excited use all of it. My brothers also got me some really cool stuff. Like I said I'm ready to use it all for signs and I need most or whenever I want.
My brothers are so annoying ! My older brother will not stop playing his obnoxious music too loud. Wish me luck with these hooligans !!!

-Gabby

Parents

Hey
I have been having a really hard time. I miss you too much. I try to keep busy so I don't get to think about you, but it doesn't work well. Everything revolves around what I could have or should be doing with you. I don't want to act or sing. I feel like a broken record. My parents don't know what I feel. They think if they get me more involved it will all be alright. They don't understand that when they moved us the took a chunk of everything about me. They think if I go to more sleepovers or hang out with more people I will be healed and whole again. I try to tell them but they don't hear it the way I mean it. They just don't understand me. I got to go now...

Gabby :'(

Weekend

Hey,
How are you? I miss you guys so much! I wish I could see you! I love you all [in the family way]. I just wanted to tell you how it was here.
The weather is cooling off. It is getting pretty cold but it still hasn't rained more than once here. I wish it would rain. It has been snowing up in the mountains...
I have a few true friends. I went to the movies yesterday with one of my friends. It was pretty fun but not as fun as when I went with you guys.
There was a Halloween dance and I went. NOT FUN! There was nothing to do, you weren't there, we just stood there,you weren't there, i didn't know many people, you weren't there, you weren't there, there wasn't a cute boy to talk too [;-)], you weren't there, and my friends may have tried to ditch me. Oh, and you guys weren't there. [Did I say that?] On actual Halloween my family went out trick-or-treating... for 30 minutes. Then my little brother and I just passed out candy.
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I may have convinced my parents to buy me tickets to Chicago for Christmas! That would be so awesome!!! I really do miss you guys a lot. I hope to talk to you soon.

Gabby

New Me

Hi!It is me!!! I haven't had a post in like forever! I am at my new house!!! It is really nice and all but it isn't the same as the old one. I wish I was in Oak Park! I miss you all so much! I have been having so much fun!

School

School is pretty good. 

• The new school sucks. I miss Julian. All the kids act 100,000 times weirder than at Julian. They all have dirty minds and act stuck up. Even the nice people seem not to give a crap about anything but their stupid clique. I know this is all coming from new girl brain but that is what I am so you are stuck with new girl version of what it is like here.
• The teachers are not bad. Most of them are pretty funny. I love my world history teacher Ms. Brown and my life science teacher Ms. Hannon. I like the teacher, the problem is what they teach. My math class is all review and we went all the way back to 4th grade. I wish that it was harder. The funny thing is it is advance math!

Weather

• Weather sucks. It is either melting hot or freezing cold. I don' t like leaving my window open at night or I will become a human popsicle, and if I wear a sweater to school I pay for it. It has not rained once since we have got here. It is so dry I feel like I am popcorn in the popcorn machine ready to burst. There is no clouds and the sun seems to always be out. The shade is even hot!

Friends

• Some. They are different. I have 3 groups of friends:

1. Religious friends
2. Male friends [Not boy friends]
3. Wacky friends

• They all seem so different it is hard to keep control of them. I feel lost in my own life. It is confusing. They are all nice, though. I really want to know if it is pity friendship though. Were you guys a pity friendship? Anyway, maybe they won't stick around and just disappear... I hope not. I would feel so broken if that were to be the case.

Family

• Everyone is acting like their parts are still randomly showing up in the mail. They act hostile, stuck-up, and grumpy. My little brother is probably the most kind person at the time. My brother is always upset about something, my parents are always busy,and Noah is Noah. He acts funny and we goof around. I finally admitted today that since we are so close that is the reason I always stick up for him in one of his and Eli's arguments. He is my baby brother, what am I supposed to do, leave him? He is still like an unhatched egg to me. He gets to ride in the front seat of the car now. To me he is still the little munchkin in the car seat next to me. I am afraid if we get in an accident he will die or something and then my little baby man will be gone forever. I love my NoNo. He and I used to play princess together and now he has given me his doll because he is to old to be caught dead with that in his room. I hope he ends up ok. I really want him to be a strong person when he grows up. I want him to stick up for himself and be confident and articulate. Love you NoNo! :-)
• Eli's birthday is tomorrow and my dad's birthday is on Monday. I am so excited! I made them both poems for their birthdays. I made Eli's about football and dad's about Mac and me. Can't wait for them tom see!

That is it! Have any specific questions I will answer them for you, just ask them in the comments section. I love you all! Talk to you all later!!!

Love,
Gabby

Update's On Life

Tomorrow is the 4th of July! I am so excited! I love holidays!
There are currently 17 days until I leave Oak Park. I am trying not to rant like I did yesterday but what can I say, anything is possible, even that I end up moving to Alaska... Never mind I am going to rant anyways... I WOULD HATE MY PARENTS FOREVER IF THEY MADE ME MOVE TO ALASKA! I HATE THEM FOR BEING ABLE TO MOVE ME TO THE OTHER SIDE OF THE COUNTRY! I HATE THEIR CHOICES! I WISH THEY COULD UNDERSTAND!
I will try not to rant anymore now that I have...
My only security/inspiration is music. I love Taylor Swift and she isn't going anywhere anytime soon! I won't leave her behind when I leave. I am so bored because almost ALL my friends go to C.A.S.T. Summer and I didn't so I don't have anyone to talk to at the moment... I wish they could take a day off and come to my house for a party or a sleepover so that I could see them and talk to them and tell them just how much I miss them... I wish. But it will not happen and I can't do anything about it... AAAAAAAAAAGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I WISH I COULD WASH MY EYES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY OLDER BROTHER IS SO GROSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Sorry about that... My brother was being a maggot like usual. Have I told you how bad I want to talk to someone? I am so lonely. I want to walk to the school and watch them rehearse and build the stage.

Lonely and Hopeless,
Gabby

Good-Bye

I am leaving in 18 days. Exactly. No buts, ors, and maybes. My dads last day of work where he is's the 19th... :'-(/:'-0 My parents say it will be a good adventure. I think it will be like one of those adventure where the person ends up dead at the end... I am pretty sure that isn't fun... Why can't they understand that everything I want is here in Oak Park?
They haven't exactly found a house yet... I am worried we won't find one but my moms says that we should trust that one will come up when the time is right. I hope that time is never because then I will never have to leave and I will live in Oak Park and be married with my kids and husband and all my friends who have all been there since I was a kid and I trust and understand and want to spend my life with and be full of happiness...
I hope that my life is good enough that I don't have to tear my kids from home to home in hope of a life better than the last. Then they will be happy like I never will be even if I become rich and famous and I am the most popular girl in my whole school.
It is my belief that who you are decides the place you live and whoever I am does not clarify that I am supposed to live everywhere and move every 3 years or so. I also believe that well fate pulls someone somewhere they should have the choice to try and change that fate and their options. I wish I could do that. I wouldn't be going anywhere! I HATE MY PARENTS DECISION AND ALL THEIR STUPID UGLY OPTIMISM FOR THE UGLY HATEFUL TERRIBLE WORLD THEY ARE PULLING US TOWARDS WHERE WE HAVE NEVER BEEN AND WOULD NEVER HAVE TO GO IF THEY COULD JUST BE NORMAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE THE FACT THEY GET TO CHOOSE WHO I AM AND WHAT MY FATE IS, WHERE I SHOULD LIVE AND WHO I AM SUPPOSED TO BE AND HOW I SHOULD FEEL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MAYBE THEY SHOULD SHUT UP FOR ONCE AND LISTEN TO WHAT THE REST OF US HAVE TO SAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE THE FACT  THEY ARE THE ADULTS AND AFTER THEY SAY SOMETHING IT IS THE OVERALL ANSWER WITH NO ADJUSTMENTS AND AGREEMENTS!!!!!! I HATE IT ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE THIS AND THAT I HAVE TO GET RID OF THE PEOPLE AND THINGS AND PLACES AND THOUGHT AND HOMES AND ANIMALS AND RULES AND SCHOOL AND STORES AND HOPE AND EVERYTHING OAK PARK IS ABOUT THAT DOESN'T FIT IN OUR STUPID BAGS AS WE LEAVE FOREVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I WISH THEY WOULD... I WANT THEM TO... I NEED THEM... I HATE IT AAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!WHY IS IT ALWAYS ME AND MY STUPID LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(>:-(

Help

I know, I know, I am a lousy blogger, but I will get better! School is out and the time to move is coming sooner and sooner... I can't do this... I really need a balance in my life. Everything is disorientated... I all completely falling apart. My friends try to help, but little do they know there isn't much they can do to help... Life isn't easy. I hate anyone who says it is. 
So over the last few weeks, things with my dad have gotten even more serious, including the following:
He was offered the job
He kinda accepted it
We have been waiting for the $$$ he gets
My insides have died telling everyone I know I'm moving
Now, don't give me pity this and pity that... I don't need it. I would much rather you say, "I am here for you at all times. Period." That is what I need. Someone to talk to, someone who understands. Someone who cares... 
Dang it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:-( It won't let me go on Facebook! This is so frustrating! I was just on it and now it is going crazy on me! Facebook sucks!!!

[FYI: That is my dogs...]

Gabby